Note to you, Yes, You!

Who are you holding me now in your hand,

Without one thing everything will be useless,

I give you fair warning before you attempt me any further,

I’m not what you supposed, but far different.

Who is he that would become my follower?

Who would sign himself candidate for my affections?

The way is suspicious, the result uncertain, perhaps destructive.

You would have to give up all else, I alone would expect to be your sole and exclusive standard.

Your no vitiate will even then be long and exhausting.

The whole past theory of your life and all conformity to the lives around you would have to be abandon’d.

Therefore release me now before troubling yourself any further, let go your hand from my shoulders.

Put me down and depart on your way .

-Walt Whitman: leaves of grass

“Never have came across such words that can translate my heart’s voice But this 💕 .

Why 24?

24 wasn’t just the number but it had a lot of expectations behind. I always expected to have much more out of my 24th Birthday. Because at this point, I thought I would already be graduated, probably engaged, Job holder, or what not. Infact, my whole life after 2012 was dependent on this figure. But nature has its own plans that we don’t get unless we pass through them. Same happened to me, I graduated Alhumdolillah! I got a job Alhumdolillah again( that I left soon) but didn’t got engaged lol because ALLAH knows I’m not yet ready to accompany a soul when my own soul is shattered, and need some amendments before I enter into someone else’s life. We girls are big dreamers( so am I) we take life as some kind of fairy tale written in novels or story books. But in real it is not a “bed of roses”. We think we will get married and find our partner who will do exactly everything like we have imagined. But it’s not 100% TRUE. I’m not saying dreams don’t come true. They do. But for this you have to make a little effort too. Because the other person too has some expectations from you. Marriage is not a stage play where at the end you live happily hereafter. To make it work you have to learn, your rights as well as your responsibilities. Your social and personal ethics. Because relations are so fragile and you need to take extra care to keep them together and stronger.

(Ah! I was talking about my 24th birthday, it totally went opposite to what I supposed. I won’t be ungrateful because At least I had my family around who tried to cheer me up with the best they could. And I decided at the very moment to not hurt them for others, to not leave them behind by looking forward, family is always there when no one else is. They are your real STRENGTH. Your IDENTITY. Your POWER. You are nothing without them. People come and go but what stays, is your family. Never let anyone come between you and your family.)

24 is not the dream age it’s the point where everyone get so concerned about you, or pretend to be, more than you for yourself. They start taking over your life. Your life no longer remains yours. They want you to get married, take responsibilities like there is nothing left in life to do except marriage but no one try to teach you the rules of this marriage life. They only make you frightened about the cons of not doing exactly what you supposed to do to be a good mashriqi biwi and bahu. And when you get married no body gives a damn to sort out your mess but only You. So, work on yourself first before ruining someone else’s life. After thinking all these serious life matters I want to run back to the time where only problem was to pass the exams, to gossip with your friend was the best pleasure , to enjoy an event with your fellows was the best memory. This adulthood is seriously getting on my nerves. I don’t wana get married to xyz just because meri omer hogai hy. I can’t handle a person when I’m not even able to handle myself.Aaaarrggghhh! 💆🏻‍♀️

If I ever knew ,what 24th year would be,even in my dreams, I would never pray for this year to come this fast, or at least should have enjoyed every bit of passed out life that I wasted dreaming for this 24th year.

Pro advice: enjoy your bachelor life, especially your student life, don’t dream about graduation year, it won’t welcome you with open arms but pressurise you with unseen responsibilities. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Because “It is useless to cry over spilt milk”.

Xoxo

Blogbymaria

یادیں اُن لمحوں کی۔۔۔

انسان بھی کتنا عجیب ہے نہ ہر اس چیز کی قدر کرتا ہے جو اس کی دسترس سے کوسوں دور ہوتی ہے وہ پھر کوئی چیز ہو، رشتہ ہو یا کسی جگہ کا احساس۔ ہم انسان اتنے مشکل کیوں ہیں؟ اپنی زندگیوں کو اتنی مشکل اور عذاب میں کیوں ڈال دیتے ہیں؟ جب کوئی ہمارے پاس ہوتا ہے تو اس کو اپنی جاگیر سمجھ کے اس کے ساتھ جو چاہے سلوک کرتے ہیں اور جب وہی ہم سے ہماری پہنچ سے دور ہوجاۓ تو اس کے پیچھے بھاگنے لگتے ہیں اور پاگل ہو جاتے ہیں اس کو پھر سے اپنی حد میں لانے کے لیے۔

وقت ہوتا ہے تو رونا روتے ہیں اس کے گزر جانے کا لیکن جب گزر جاتا ہے تو اس وقت کو یاد کر کے روتے ہیں۔ کتنا عجیب ہے انسان۔ محبت کرنے والے رشتے پاس ہوں تو ان کی اہمیت کا کوئی اندازہ نہیں ہوتا لیکن جیسے ہی وہ دور ہوجاتے ہیں تو ان کی غیر موجودگی کھانے لگتی ہے۔ ہمیں ہر چیز کا احساس بہت دیر باد ہی کیوں ہوتا ہے؟

کیا ہم وقت کے ہاتھ ہوتے، رشتوں کے ساتھ ہوتے ، جگہوں پہ موجود ہوتے اس وقت کو خوب جی نہیں سکتے؟ نہیں۔۔۔

انسان ہیں نہ خاصیت ہے یہ ہماری ہر گزرے ہوۓوقت کو اہمیت دینا۔ بلکل ایسا ہی وقت ہے جو مجھے احساس دلا رہا ہے ان دنوں کا جن کو میں نے روتے گزار اُس کل کے انتظار میں جو میرا آج ہے لیکن اس آج میں اس گزرے ہوۓ کل جیسا اک لمحہ بھی نہیں ہے بلکہ اس ماضی کا دکھ اور آنے والے کل کی فکر ہے بس۔۔

خوبصورت لمحات کل کی فکر میں ضائع کر دیے اور اب صرف یادیں اور پچھتاوہ۔

یادِ ماضی عذاب ہے یا رب

تو چھین لے مجھ سے حافظہ میرا

اچھے وقت کے انتظار میں اپنے آج کو ضائع اور کل کی فکر میں خود کو ہلکان کرنے کا کوئی فائدہ نہیں اُلٹا ہاتھ میں صرف پچھتاوا رہ جاتا ہے جو ساری عمر کانٹا بن کے دل میں اٹک کے رہ جاتا ہے۔

-بلاگ باۓ ماریہ

Let’s talk about my two favourite eyeliners…!

Hey guys!

How are you all? Long time no blogpost. Well I thought of writing a detailed post rather than instagram post this time. If you know me, or not in case I’m eyeliner person. I can just slay eyeliner and go out because #Niqaabi 😇 I love to make my eye pop (they do pop all the time because eye bags 🤣)

So, I started wearing eyeliner from scratch (still a disaster lol) but some eyeliners are just easy to apply that anyone can apply.

Well… I started my eyeliner journey with @essencecosmetics liquid eyeliner and It made my life so much easy. So, I never gave up on #essence.

This is my current fav. Because…It drys out instantly.

Gives yo matte finish.

Don’t smudge.

Have to remove it with makeup remover but not so easily.

Pocket friendly.

Drugstore product.

Can be used for months.

So, Yeah ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

But…

It does feel heavy for a while on lids but sets Ok after sometime. ^_^

That’s how precise it’s applicator is, let you define whatever liner look you want.

Price on which I got it was 470/- Rs

Moving towards my second favourite is, one from #NYX and it is..

It is it’s ink liner. And I’m so happy to own it, it actually is a gift from a friend. Let me show you how it’s application point look like…

I’m obsessed because…

It is so easygoing.

Black in finish.

Can last for hours( I wore it for 24 hours and did wudu twice too)

Don’t smudge easily.

Drugstore product again in countries like USA.

I don’t know the price but I guess it’s around 8-10$.

So, ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

This is how they appear 👇🏻

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I highly recommend these to beginners like me. And tell me your favourite one. Also, Is it convenient for you to read blogposts or instagram posts??? Do let me know.

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Like, share and comment if you like my posts :)))

Much appreciated!

Love 💕

-blogbymaria 🌸

Oh dear, another year!

BIRTHDAYS ARE ALWAYS SENTIMENTAL. 

Because…

One has mixed feelings of sadness and excitement atm. Excited for birthday surprises,cakes and gifts while sad for being a grown up and getting older and older.

It is rightly said,”DON’T GROW UP IT’S A TRAP” -grey

But…

GROWING OLD IS MANDATORY.

I’m older now too.I turned 23rd this 14th January. Yeah a month ago 😌 this is an important year as I discussed before I’m graduating this year and a whole lot things are gonna change next year(I GUESS SO) and honestly speaking i’m not ready yet for all the grown up responsibilities and post graduation stress. So, I wanted to celebrate this birthday with family (thanks to hostel life I haven’t celebrate my birthdays with them since I’d got admission in university) *SIGH*

But to my surprise My friends made my birthday memorable. I was sad because 2017 brought nothing good until then. But birthday brought some blissful moments. ALHUMDOLILLAH!

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I used to be most careless BETI of my parents and I don’t want to be SERIOUS in my life this early. But life goes on no matter.SO, instead of blubbering I set a resolution i.e.

 “TO GET MOST OF THIS YEAR”

IN SHAA ALLAH.

(#Part2)

WHY CHANGED MY NAME FROM “CURLY GIRLY BLOG” TO “BLOG BY MARIA”?

Well, when I created a blog i wasn’t sure what’ll I post or share(probably not much sure yet) but now I’m sure about one thing that I want to rename my blog with my real name 🙂

It would be easy for people to find and connect with me and It’s a pleasure to have something on your name 😉

BECAUSE “YOUR NAME IS YOUR FIRST IDENTITY.”

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This is it all about what was in my mind lately. hope you guys don’t get bored of my posts. suggestions are always welcome.

-blogbymaria

Super Senior Feels 🎓

Heyyyyy Guys 👋 

It’s been a looooooongggg time I didn’t talk to you people about anything. Hope y’all are doing well.

Already told you guys about my studies and hostel stuff (Full time BICHAAARI). Had been busy in my finals lately in finals YESSSSS 4th year finals 💃🏻 EXAAACTLYYYY “SUPER SENIOR” now 🤗 ALHUMDOLILLAH 😇

I remember the day I got admission in pharmacy, wasn’t happy because of the long 5 year program and away from home. Now as time is near finally to be a graduate in a year or less. I feel so sad and Nostalgic already 😰 

I know it’s crazy to overthink about future before time but it’s human nature you know right. So this is the time when I’m surrounded by multiple thoughts 💭 like What will I do afterwards? Should I continue studies ? Job? Or SHAAAADI 😩 (Not ready for last option this early actually afraid 😳)

khair let’s forget about these worries for some time and I’ll enjoy last year of undergraduate tag to the fullest being a super senior 😂 and collect memories to remember this yime with tears 😭 in eyes and smile on lips 🙂 IA 

Now tell me what to do to make this year memorable ?? Share your graduation story if already graduated ☺️

Will be waiting for your suggestions and feedback 💋

Xoxo 🤗

-Curlygirly 

SUPER MOON seen during HOSTEL stay ❤️

Friday ^_^

In Arabic Friday is الجمعة al-jum`ah , means gathering. In Islamic countries it is taken as EID day.Yeh tu hoen kuch KITAABI batain. There are certain chores related to this day but before that I’ll tell you why I like this day :’)

So, When in school this day brought joy because HALF DAY off 😀 *always a treat for kids* Now in university, Friday night is the happiest night with long weekend 😉  Then I’ve relatives in saudia and there people make rice and gather at one place on friday. It is so much fun Isn’t it? But here in Pakistan we keep Friday fix for RICE dish. You can make on any day but friday is must. Mmm you may think it’s odd but I love boys in Eastern dresses as this happen only on specific days like Friday, Eid day etc Com’n don’t think I do flirt LOL *wink*

I love to get ready on friday So, talking about the things to do on friday I’ll start with what I do mostly.

• Surah Kah’f recitation with fajar prayer
• Bath according to sunnah
• Good neat clothes
• Perfume spray (non-alcoholic)
• kajal/liner (I prefer essence)
• Lip color (not mostly)
• Selfies 😛 *ignore it*
• Nails trimming

This is what I do. Now I’ll share a picture what Sunnah of friday really is.And picture is GOOGLED of course but every Muslim agrees on this.

Hope you guys enjoyed 😛 Do share your friday routine and fun moments 🙂 I love to read your comments.and feel free to share the post.

HAVE A BLESSED FRIDAY EVERYONE. *_*

-Curlygirly

 

 

 

Why started Blogging?

 

So, after Who is behind the veil? a question is raised that how and why did I decide to be a blogger?

Mmm, I started following different blogs/bloggers two or three years ago to know about what’s happening or trending in make up, clothing and lifestyle world. Being a student I didn’t take care of myself until l enrolled in a university. Where I’ve to interact and face so many people of versatile personalities. So, I decided to groom my personality as well.I’m choosy and picky in everything from a simple spoon to a friend 😛 *ignore this* :D.

Being a CAPRICORN (basic reason behind the step) I so wanted to BE KNOWN :’D

 

who don’t like to be admired by people.But I don’t want to be admired by my looks but my mind.

So, Day by day as I used to know make up is far beyond lip gloss and kajal I also got an urge to say what I think and what I do or what I feel? because nothing can soothe your heart more than giving your feelings a voice to express.

I was admin of a medical page but you can’t post everything there you know.I saw people becoming so SOCIAL and POPULAR through this. I wished to be a part of this line but hectic university and hostel life wasn’t allowing me to spare some time for blogging. This summer I expressed my wish on Twitter and snap chat and there you go Sumbul (sumbul blog) , Urooba and Mahrukh encouraged me to make one.People who know how to make someone feel better about themselves.

Ignoring all the voices in my head till the end of my internship where I felt the value of being known and appreciated.I garnered my thoughts and made a blog.

Now the next step was  NAME selection. I was searching searching and searching then CURLY GIRLY came into mind suddenly as I have Curly hair type 😉 So, here is behind the blog story.

If you like to read it *THUMBS UP* and hit the *FOLLOW* button and keep inviting 🙂

Image courtesy: Myself and Facebook ^_*

-Curlygirly

Who is behind the veil ?

This post is my first ever post as a blogger *Super excited* :’) Before posting about anything I owe you people an introductory post first !

Name: Maria Dilshad

Qualification: Pharm.D Student

As far as hobbies and daily life is concerned I’m a super lazy 😴 girl.Foody and of course Cook 😛 Shopaholic that’s why budget Stays 0 :’D .

And why, when and how I decided to be a blogger ? for this you have to wait for my next post ..

If you wana know something more about me ask me 🙂 I would love to talk to you ^_^

You all are welcome ☺️

-curlygirly 💋